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Behold: A contemplative reading of Moses 1

In an era defined by digital distraction and disembodied thinking, a recent piece in Wayfare offers a startlingly tactile invitation: to stop merely looking at the world and start holding it. The article reframes the ancient scriptural command to "behold" not as a distant visual act, but as a radical, embodied engagement that collapses the gap between the observer and the observed. For busy minds accustomed to skimming surfaces, this contemplative reading of Moses 1 suggests that true perception requires a physical and spiritual surrender that feels less like reading and more like breathing.

The Anatomy of Beholding

Wayfare argues that our modern language has stripped the word "behold" of its original, heavy weight. The piece reports, "Behold is thus participative, direct, and embodied; it means to tend from all directions." By breaking down the etymology into the intensifier "be" (to encompass) and the root "hold" (to keep, possess, cherish), the editors dismantle the idea that spiritual perception is a purely mental exercise. This linguistic excavation is effective because it immediately grounds high theology in the physical reality of the reader's body.

Behold: A contemplative reading of Moses 1

The article contrasts this with the Enlightenment legacy of "excarnation," a term borrowed from philosopher Charles Taylor to describe the cultural shift toward identifying with the disembodied mind. Wayfare notes, "Faith became a matter of propositions about God's nature, rather than participation in it." This is a sharp critique of how even religious communities can lose their way, turning faith into a checklist of beliefs rather than a lived experience. Critics might argue that this focus on embodiment risks sidelining the intellectual rigor required for doctrinal understanding, yet the piece insists that without the "heart of flesh," the mind remains a "stony heart" incapable of true transformation.

To behold is to take in and drink up with our entire soul, our body, and our spirit instead of guarding, filtering out, shutting down, and narrowing.

The Dialectic of the Divine

Moving from the self to the Divine, the text explores how scripture invites us into a dynamic relationship through two opposing yet complementary methods: the cataphatic (naming) and the apophatic (un-naming). Wayfare reports that while the cataphatic approach uses metaphors like "fortress" or "mother hen" to soften and strengthen the believer, the apophatic approach uses paradox to "pry us from our words, descriptions, and even our experiences." This dialectical strategy prevents the reader from turning God into a static concept or a mere portrait.

The piece highlights the tension in Moses 1, where God is described as "Endless" and "without end," yet simultaneously declares, "I have a work for you." Wayfare argues that this juxtaposition of infinity and particularity "transforms, rather than annihilates, the particular." This is a crucial insight for those feeling overwhelmed by the vastness of the cosmos or the insignificance of their own lives. It suggests that the divine mystery does not erase human identity but rather anchors it. As the article puts it, "Such beholding teaches us to let ourselves be grasped by God, rather than trying to grasp God."

This approach resonates with the historical tradition of apophatic theology found in the writings of Duns Scotus and Saint Teresa of Avila, who warned against loving "a mere postponement" or idolizing past experiences. The editors suggest that the apophatic method prepares the soul to be surprised, noting, "Some of my most precious and transformative encounters with God have shattered everything I thought I understood about God." This willingness to surrender even cherished spiritual experiences for the sake of new revelation is a demanding, yet liberating, proposition.

The Paradox of Self

The final section of the commentary turns inward, examining how beholding God inevitably reshapes one's view of oneself. Wayfare points to the jarring realization in Moses 1:10, where Moses states, "For this cause, I know that man is nothing, which thing I had never supposed." The piece argues that this sense of insignificance must be held in tension with the assurance that "all things are numbered unto me, for they are mine and I know them."

The editors warn that losing this polarity leads to two dangerous extremes: the narcissism of thinking one is the center of the universe, or the despair of thinking nothing matters. Wayfare suggests that holding both truths together shifts the believer's posture from an "anxious, unceasing wrestle" to a state of "deep rest." This reframing of self-worth is not based on achievement or status, but on the simple, terrifying intimacy of being known. The piece concludes with a powerful observation on the difficulty of this realization: "And I—who have probably spent too much time in the smallness... almost can't bear the searing intimacy of these words."

Bottom Line

Wayfare's contemplative reading succeeds in transforming a familiar scriptural text into a urgent call for embodied presence, effectively challenging the disembodied nature of modern faith. Its greatest strength lies in the etymological grounding of "behold," which provides a practical tool for spiritual practice, though it risks alienating readers who prefer propositional certainty over paradoxical mystery. For the busy reader seeking to reclaim a sense of connection in a fragmented world, this piece offers a necessary, if demanding, invitation to stop looking and start holding.

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Behold: A contemplative reading of Moses 1

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What would it be like to perceive like God: to exercise an intimate awareness of the cellular structure of each blade of grass, of the spinning, birthing cosmos; of each unfathomable human being? Over a decade ago, I stumbled onto a podcast about contemplative prayer and became an earnest, if clumsy, student of contemplation in order to behold the world, myself, and especially the Divine, anew. I’ve always found the theophany of Moses 1 to be among the most compelling Restoration texts, in part because of how it treats this question through its persistent use of the verb behold. I think it gives a remarkable account of what contemplative perception—a grace-infused beholding—might look like and require of us.

What does it mean to behold? We often equate behold with looking, gazing, or a command to look upon. But if we consider the etymology, at least in the Germanic roots of our English word behold, there are two parts: first, the intensifier be, which means to encompass, to be on all sides, or to be thorough and complete. Second, there is the action being intensified, which in this word is hold, which means to keep, possess, carry, cherish, tend. Behold is thus participative, direct, and embodied; it means to tend from all directions. To gaze, by contrast, is to leverage our most distant sense. I can extend my sight to an object at a greater distance than any of my other senses can perceive. Behold collapses that distance: to behold is to touch, to carry.

Indeed, even though references to beholding in Moses mention beholding “by the spirit” (verses 11, 27–28), I think spiritual beholding is actually deeply embodied. In Ezekiel 36:26, the Lord says: “A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh.” Spirit is equated with or accompanied by fleshliness, the heart. So if I were to combine these scriptures, to behold by the spirit is to see with eyes of flesh rather than eyes of stone. To behold is to take in and drink up with our entire soul, our body, and our spirit instead of guarding, filtering out, shutting down, and narrowing. To behold by the spirit is to behold everything.

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