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Am i becoming a Christian?

In an era of online polarization where nuance is often treated as betrayal, Alex O'Connor of Cosmic Skeptic delivers a refreshingly honest assessment of his own intellectual evolution. He confronts the viral frenzy surrounding a single offhand remark—admitting that Christianity is "more plausibly true" now than when he was a teenager—not to announce a conversion, but to expose the fragility of rigid ideological camps. For the busy reader navigating a digital landscape dominated by performative certainty, O'Connor's willingness to hold two contradictory ideas in his head simultaneously is a masterclass in intellectual integrity.

The Nuance of Plausibility

The core of O'Connor's argument is a rejection of the "New Atheism" movement's strident dismissal of religious arguments. He recounts his teenage self, swept up by figures like Richard Dawkins and Christopher Hitchens, viewing religion as an "utterly irrational and evil force." However, a decade of deep study has shifted his perspective from absolute dismissal to agnostic openness. "I've now come to prefer the term agnostic over atheist," O'Connor explains, noting that while he still does not believe in God, he recognizes that "there are good reasons to believe in God" and "very good reasons to not believe in God."

Am i becoming a Christian?

This distinction is crucial. O'Connor is not arguing that the evidence for God is conclusive, but rather that the arguments previously dismissed by his younger self deserve serious engagement. He points out that Dawkins, in The God Delusion, spent only two pages addressing Thomas Aquinas's Five Ways, a move O'Connor characterizes as failing to "properly deal with the significance of the arguments." By acknowledging that the other side has "compelling considerations," O'Connor challenges the binary thinking that dominates online discourse.

Critics might note that admitting an opposing view has merit can be weaponized by bad actors to claim a total reversal of position. O'Connor anticipates this, arguing that if a Christian could say atheism is "much more plausible" than they thought at seventeen without being accused of apostasy, atheists should be afforded the same intellectual grace.

"If just saying that the other side, so to speak, is maybe more plausible than some people give it credit for... causes like this kind of reaction, what does that say about the state of our ability online to have conversations about important topics?"

The Grift Accusation and the Evidence of Continuity

The most striking aspect of O'Connor's commentary is his forensic dismantling of the conspiracy theories that erupted after his interview with Bear Grylls. He identifies two hostile reactions: Christians convinced he is on the verge of conversion, and atheists accusing him of a "grift" to capitalize on a trend. To refute the latter, he marshals a catalog of his recent work, proving his critical stance remains unchanged. He lists titles from his own channel: "Why the Bible isn't true," "Was Jesus the serpent in the Garden of Eden?" and "Why the problem of evil is the biggest problem for Christianity."

O'Connor does not shy away from the moral failings of religious texts, explicitly addressing the "scriptural injunctions towards the ownership of other human beings as private property" and the "genocide" found in the Bible. He writes, "I get sick to death of people handwaving away this genocide by some vague reference to the fact that Jesus came along to do something which somehow kind of undoes the immorality of it." This demonstrates that his recent comments on plausibility are not a softening of his critique, but a deepening of his understanding of the arguments he opposes.

The author suggests that the accusation of a grift stems from a low "barrier of intellectual engagement." He posits that true dialogue requires the starting point: "I think that what you're saying is really interesting and plausible, but I disagree with it." Instead, the online default has become a refusal to even entertain the possibility that an opposing worldview has any rational footing. "If our starting point is just there is nothing you could possibly say that will rationally convince me... then like fair enough," O'Connor concedes, but he refuses to adopt that closed mindset.

Bottom Line

Alex O'Connor's piece succeeds because it refuses to play the game of performative certainty that defines modern internet culture. His strongest argument is not a proof of God, but a proof of concept: that one can rigorously critique a religion while acknowledging the intellectual weight of its arguments. The biggest vulnerability in his position is the risk that his nuanced language will continue to be stripped of context by algorithms and opportunists, a problem he identifies but cannot fully solve. For the discerning reader, the takeaway is clear: intellectual maturity lies not in having the final answer, but in the courage to admit that the question is harder than you thought.

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Am i becoming a Christian?

by Alex O'Connor · Cosmic Skeptic · Watch video

Right. Can everybody just like chill out a little bit, please? Alex Okconor just admitted it. Christianity might actually be true.

He debated Christians for years, then admitted this about Jesus. Did Alex Okconor convert to Christianity? Alex Okconor is no longer an atheist? Alex Okconor no longer an atheist.

Here's why. Alex Okconor no longer an atheist. Here's why. Part two.

Alex Okconor just admitted this about Christianity. Did Alex Okconor change his Sorry. Did Alex Okconor change his mind about Christianity? Are you ready to die, cosmic skeptic?

Okay, that one actually sounds a bit like a threat, but I'm sure it's driving it the same thing. Okay, so what happened? Something super significant must have gone down to cause all of this ruckus. Well, I'll tell you.

I recently had a conversation with Bear Grills in which he asked me where my study of Christianity and theology has led me. And I told him, wait for it, that I think Christianity is more plausibly true than the new atheists do and than I did when I was a teenager. Can you believe it? >> But you've had such a journey and you've met so many amazing people and you've debated so many different angles and things.

Where how does it >> how where's it led you to? >> It's led me to Well, I used to be quite on board with the new atheism stuff. I've spoken about this a lot. So what does that >> like the sort of Richard Dawkins Christopher Hitchens it was really popular the debates that they were doing they called it new atheism >> and it was this body of like atheist thought with the god delusion this kind of stuff which was really popular and it had this sort of quite strident >> debate me bro kind of attitude >> and I was really swept up by that.

I thought that was really exciting and cool. >> And I was beginning to sort of shake that off and you grow up a bit essentially. And then running the podcast, what I've realized that this is this is far more interesting and intricate >> and I would say plausible than I'd given it credit for before. So >> I'm still not a Christian.

Not true, not even plausible, but just more plausible than I thought when I was a teenager. And ...